A Heart That Forgives

What do you do when someone hurts you? Do you harbor the anger and pain or do you let it go and just move on. I think you take a deep breath and just keep it moving, but sometimes its not that easy. Sometimes its the person you cared for the most that hurts you the worst. Its those times that forgiveness is hardest but someway somehow, you have to let go, forgive and move on. This song has helped me, hope it helps those who need it.

"Heart That Forgives" - Kevin Levar

B does it AGAIN!!!!!

I'm a little late with the videos but after hearing so many people talk about it I have finally seen Beyonce and Lady Gaga's "Video Phone" All I can say is B has done it again! I never really considered myself to be a Beyonce fan but I might have to start. This chic is killing it right now and its crazy. Some may think the video is trashy and too provocative but for some odd reason B still manages to look quite classy even when she's half naked. Maybe its her untarnished reputation or the fact that she's married but whatever it is, she pulls it off well.

The thing I like most about Beyonce is that she has found her niche and she has perfected it. She truly is the female Jay Z of pop music or whatever her genre of music is considered to be. Now some of you might not agree with that statement but if you don't...I want you to take a minute and give me one artist that you can actually compare Beyonce to??.....if your still looking for an answer its NO ONE. Not Re-Re, not Alicia Keyes, not MJB no one.

Beyonce is not the best singer ever or the greatest dancer but she is an amazing performer who reeks of unmatchable stardom. She's not afraid to be risque and she's not afraid to be sexy. It just so happens that her sexy is a different kind of sexy. Its that 2010 sexy all woman can take a note from. Its the sexy that says hey I COMMAND respect, I'm powerful, I'm hot and I'm gonna make these fools step up to my level. Now maybe that's my own interpretation but being as though she married Mr. Swagger himself I must be right. Jay Z has mad quiet a name for himself and Beyonce has done the same which makes them the perfect power couple. Love It!!!

If you have not checked out the video yet you can catch it on you tube. If you hate the video then its pretty clear that your a hater. Not sure what Lady Gaga's purpose was but hats off to you Beyonce for exuding power and confidence!!!

Check out the video and let me know what you think.

My most memorable moments of 2009

In 12 days we will officially reach the end of 2009. I've had great moments and bad moments this year, let's take a look at some of my greatest and worst moments of 2009.

Greatest

Ran my 1st 5k.
Dropped down to a size 4
Went to Los Angeles
Started my very own blog
Became alot more sociable
Won one of the most prestigious awards at work
Attended the Inauguration

Worst

Kept the wrong door open
Hit a 3 month financial bump
Lost sight of the bigger picture

I will probably add more in the upcoming days however, I am glad to see that there was more good than bad. Looking at the bad makes me very thankful things were not worst. Looking at the good, make me feel like wow, there is nothing I can't do, when I'm FOCUSED man!~~

Would love to hear what some of your greatest moments were please share!!!

Interesting lyrics of 2009

2009 has brought about some very interesting music this year. While the music these days is mainly based on sex, money and more sex, there has been some very humorous yet slightly thought provoking lines that have come about in 2009. Let's take a look at these lines and the type of people who would say them.

Mr. Confident: "Catch me at the X with OG at a Yankee game s*&t I made the yankee hat more famous than a Yankee can."

Ms. Crazy that exist in ALL woman: "Should I grab his phone, call this chic up, start some shhhh then hang up, or should I be a lady, ooh maybe cuz I wanna have his babies"

The Tiger Woods: "And every time I think of staying with her, she brings a friend around that make a n*7%$ reconsider"

The down to earth, keep it real kind of guy: "Sweat pants head tie chilling with no make up on, that's when your the prettiest I hope that you don't take that wrong."

The sexual guy who use to/currently goes to church: "Know we bout to sin but your body is a blessing (papa forgive me)"

The Whitty Thug: "Last name greatest first name ever like a sprained ankle boy I am nothing to play with"

Mr. Humble yet honest: "Yes I made mistakes that I don't ever make excuses for, Leaving girls that love me and constantly seducing hoes"

Mr. I Made it!!!!: "I am what everybody, in my past don't want me to be, Guess what I made it, I'm da mother f&$kin man I just want you to see."

and last but not least:

Mrs. knows her self worth!!!: "If you liked it then you shoulda put a ring on it"

I'd love to hear your thoughts, which line best fits you?

All I Want for Christmas

Ok so I saw someone used their blog as a way to put it out there what they wanted for xmas, I thought it was a pretty smart idea so I'm going to have to bite. Thanks for the good idea girlie I'm giving you full credit lol.

My Xmas List for 2009 is as follows:

Some kind of diamond (braclet, necklace, ring, earrings,) I will not discriminate
IPOD Touch
A pair of boots
A louis V bag
A house and doggie to match@!!!
A coffee maker

Ok now that's what the old me would have wanted. The real me... well I kind of realized that I have all that I need and I'm pretty blessed. The only thing thats missing is...Peace with where I am in life.

If I can learn that then all will be perfect in my world.

Happy Holidays!!!!

Holiday Blues

Usually around the holidays I am bouncing from wall to wall singing Christmas carol's and estactically happy. I don't know what's going on this year but I think the holiday blues are trying to get me. By now I normally would have had my house fully decorated and my Christmas tree up but nope...nothing is done. I have a good idea what it is but how to fix it eludes me.

I thought my trip to Nordstroms on Saturday would solve my troubles but it didn't. All that did was add a nice touch to my outfit by having me purchase a pair of overly expensive booties.....they are cute though. So not only do I have the holiday blues, my 2year tradition of buying 1 gift for myself for every gift that I get for someone else is disappointingly unsuccessful this year.

Nonetheless, I'm going to continue to try to fight it. The Christmas Carrol's have been in rotation for the past 72 hours but I'm going to keep the going. I'm also going to pick up a Christmas tree today after work and begin decorating the house. If all else fails..........there is always eggnog lol.

Well folk I better get back to work. Don't let the holiday blues get you too....Happy Holidays.

Random Why's

There are so many thoughts in my head I don't know where to start. I guess today I'll just give you guys a few randoms:

-I can't believe Christmas is in 11 days, time is going by so fast I wish I could get some of it back.

-Why is the media obsessing over Tiger Woods and his cheating ways. He's not the first man to cheat excessively to the point where its ridiculous, and I'm sure he won't be the last man to cheat that way.

-Why do they only sell eggnog during the holidays? Eggnog is soooo good and should be sold throughout the year.

-Why do I feel like Melanie Fionna read my diary and then made some money off my emotional words :0(

-Why is New Years Eve around the corner? Still don't know what I'm going to do yet.

-Why is there never enough time in a day to accomplish all that you need to.

-Why do emotions make you act a fool sometimes.

-Why do they say shopping is food for the soul when your depressed. That is just a underhanded lie to manipulate people into buying more crap.

-Why do I love love love when Rhianna says "I pitch with a gre-naaaade" lol

-Why do I feel so very thankful for all my blessings yet sad at the exact same time.

-Why does driving to Baltimore put me in such a bad mood. I'm from NY but BMore is so HOOD its crazy.

Well that's enough for today, I have a feeling I will be writing alot more this week.


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I Wanna be a MAC Girl

For those of you who know me you know that I am always into everything. I am fortunate enough to be good at a lot of things and I am always interested in trying new things. Its like the more skills I find that I am good at the more I become interested in venturing off and finding what else I can be good at. I guess you can say I'm a jack of many trades lol.

Anywho, lately I am really into make up and I think that I would make a great MAC girl. Now I must be honest and admit that I am still very much an amateur since I typically only wear makeup on my eyes; However, when I was in the MAC store the other day, I was looking at the makeup artists and I was saying to myself "wow, I could really do this and probably be good at it." Maybe it was the cute little aprons they was wearing, or maybe it was the fact that everyone in there was all dolled up from head to toe like I usually am. All I know is that I really have been feeling like that might be a good look for me.

I am really not sure how to go about becoming a MAC girl but I know I have alot to learn before I get to that point. Untill then I will polish my skill, do some research on skincare and learn new techinques. I will never be the chick who wears a full face of make up, but I do think its important to enhance the good qualities that you have and make them stand out. Take a look at the eye trick I rocked when I went out in NY. Suprisingly it was a hit, but I know there are other tricks I must learn to better my technique.

My constant need to venture off to new hobby is my way of looking for that one good skill that can keep my interest and really be of financial gain to me. The bartending thing was cool but as I mentioned before I feel conflicted bartending on Saturday and going to church on Sunday. (No offense to anyone, that is MY personal issue).

Nonetheless, I will continue on in my pursuits and keep track of my progress as time goes on. If you have any tips or feedback on the eye trick I tried please feel free to share.

xoxo
MAC girl lol

Bartender!! Bartender!!

I mentioned in my previous post that I had a bartending gig during my Thanksgiving visit in NY. I was excited yet nervous about it because its been a while since I have bartended. I guess you can say bartending is like riding a bike because although I didn't remember any of the recipes on my index cards, when I got behind the bar everything came right back to me instinctively. What didn't come back to me I made up and guess what??? they liked it just as I knew they would :-)

I'm not sure what it is about the club that makes people want to floss and spend ALL of their money bottle popping, but hey their flossing is my tips. In the midst of my bartending hiatus I forgot just how fun it was. Its like going to the club getting paid to make drinks and listen to good music. It almost doesn't even feel like working sometimes and as for the money, well unless your in a really LAME spot, the money is always good.

For a quick minute I was thinking about officially putting my bartending hat back on but now that reality has settled back in I will have to humbly decline. Although the money is great and it is hella fun, my mentality has changed a bit and I think I will leave that as a every now and again gig.

If you have ever considered bartending I would definitely say try it. Those exciting times will serve as a great story when I am old and gray.