In just 9 more days, I will be one year older. Its scary because 1. in no way do I feel like I aged past 26 and 2. I feel more confused than I ever felt before. Things that once made sense no longer do, and things that should make sense still does not make sense. I'm not really sure if its the pressure of getting older or the fact that its really time for me to buckle down and decide exactly what I want in this world but there is definitely pressure. I have been so confused I couldn't even decide on my own birthday wish list and I ALWAYS know what I want when birthdays or holidays come around. My list as of now only includes (2) books by Joel Osteen and a Louis Vuitton bag that I KNOW I should not even be looking at right now.
This phase that I am going through is extremely frustrating and nerve wrecking. I feel as though I am walking around with a big question mark in the middle of my forehead and there are no answers in sight. Nonetheless, I find solace in the fact that I KNOW things will eventually start to make sense. What I don't know now I will know at the right time and all I can do is pray for guidance and wisdom in the interim.
The one thing I know for certain is that I will be in Vegas in 11 days and I need that question on my forehead gone!.....at least for the trip =)
Love and Blessings