It's not too often I get personal with you guys but every now and again I provide a sneak peak into my REAL life. I'll start by saying these past few months have shown me there is nothing like family. Although you may not always get along, your family will always be there for you. They will hold you up when you feel weak, put you back together when someone breaks you apart, they will tell you, you are great when you feel you are at your worst and they will be there for you when everyone you THOUGHT would be around.....is gone. If I haven't described your family I pray that in some way you can receive the same love and support I've just described.
My family has given me so much strength and support I couldn't fathom life without them. I had a very strained relationship with my father for many years and one day I finally decided to let go of my animosity and accept him as he is. Surprisingly enough, we are finally to the point where we are cool. We talk, laugh and reminisce and I am continuously comforted and relieved we repaired our relationship. My mother will go from nagging me to high fiving me in a blink of an eye. She will be my mother one second and my girlfriend the next effortlessly. My sister lives pretty far away but through text messaging and facebook we speak so frequently throughout the day you would think she lived up the block. And as for my brother, well although he is 6yrs younger than me, he has declared himself my "big" brother and he does the best job making sure I am always ok.
I can write all day about the importance of family and a how irreplaceable they are but I think you guys get the point. Embrace, love, respect and appreciate your family because you only get one.
So today I am one year older and all the wiser. Within the first 30 minutes of being 32 I made a major decision which will make my life all more better. I'm kissing 31 goodbye and I looking 32 straight in the face grinning because I KNOW what's in store for me. Motto for 32 is; "To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did"
They say when one door closes another one opens. I've closed the door many times before but have always left it partially unlocked. I've closed the door many times yet still looked through the peep hole. This time its different. There are no locks this time, there are no peep holes and the door isn't closed. This time the door is shut. 
In just 9 more days, I will be one year older. Its scary because 1. in no way do I feel like I aged past 26 and 2. I feel more confused than I ever felt before. Things that once made sense no longer do, and things that should make sense still does not make sense. I'm not really sure if its the pressure of getting older or the fact that its really time for me to buckle down and decide exactly what I want in this world but there is definitely pressure. I have been so confused I couldn't even decide on my own birthday wish list and I ALWAYS know what I want when birthdays or holidays come around. My list as of now only includes (2) books by Joel Osteen and a Louis Vuitton bag that I KNOW I should not even be looking at right now. 
It's not too often I get personal with you guys but every now and again I provide a sneak peak into my REAL life. I'll start by saying these past few months have shown me there is nothing like family. Although you may not always get along, your family will always be there for you. They will hold you up when you feel weak, put you back together when someone breaks you apart, they will tell you, you are great when you feel you are at your worst and they will be there for you when everyone you THOUGHT would be around.....is gone. If I haven't described your family I pray that in some way you can receive the same love and support I've just described. 
